TITLE: Radiant Light of Love
NAME: Tatsushi Miyazaki
COUNTRY: Japan
EMAIL: tatsushimx@yahoo.co.jp
WEBPAGE: noneJPGFILE: rlightl.jpg

TOPIC: Opposites
COPYRIGHT: I SUBMIT TO THE STANDARD RAYTRACING COMPETITION COPYRIGHT.
JPGFILE: rlightl.jpg
RENDERER USED: 
    Shade 7.5 Basic

TOOLS USED: 

        Shade 7.5 Basic
        Paintgraphic Version 3.0.4
        Terragen v0.9

RENDER TIME: 
    31984 seconds

HARDWARE USED: 
    Pentium4 2.40GHz, 500MB RAM


IMAGE DESCRIPTION: 

Sorry for my poor English.

For 13 years, I had been in deep depression. I felt an overwhelming power taking
control 
over my life, crushing and destroying my existance, transforming me into a
stereotyped 
common sensed person. I was in the depth of despair. I thought nothing could
change my 
life back to normal. I thought there is no way to make my dreams come real. I
felt that I
failed my life, that my life was in a waste basket. I tortured myself
questioning why  
this terrible thing was happening to me. I had begun to hear voices
interrogating me 
when there was no one around. Only ultimate power, supreme strength, strong
enough to 
prove that my idea, my methodologies are the greatest of all to every single
person on 
this earth, should break this situation and save me out, I thought. I had become
an 
unpleasant easily irritated person, despirately seeking power in whatever I
do...then 
I met an Amitabha, she believed in me just like an infant believes her mother
without 
single doubt as if she had done so for thousands and thousands of years. By
doing so,
she taught me that I still have an internal strength within me, that my life is
still
worthy of living. I felt relieved for the first time in a decade. I began to
read books
written by Jim Donovan (This is your life, not dress rehearsal.) and by Dale
Carnegie
(How to stop worrying and start living.). I learned the importance of praising
myself.
Sometimes at night, I praise myself for anything I can think of. I feel much
better, 
and I realize that even in those dark days, I had been doing something good,
somthing
truely innovative. I have come to realize that what I am in its essence can
never be taken
away by anybody, even by the most horrible tyrants. And the essence is so
different from 
other people, that my existance and what I do are innovative by the nature, and
there is
no need to struggle. Even now, there are overwhelming hardships, but now I do
what I can,
and rest, I give them all to God. Everything I do in my life have meaning. Its
just that 
I don't understand it when I'm doing it. So I follow what the mighty God tells
me to do. 
Even if I get something unexpected, it's just that I don't understand. I just
make my 
lemonade when I get a lemon. I've finally got peace in my heart. Thank God for
guiding me 
all the way through, someone who never believed you for thirty years. Thank you
for sending 
me an Amitabha. Thank you for all your miracles.

May peace fill your life for eternity.


DESCRIPTION OF HOW THIS IMAGE WAS CREATED: 

All modelings were done using Shade 7.5 basic and textures were created with
Paintgraphic.
I used Terragen for the upperhalf background image generation.
Rendering options were
method: path tracing
global illumination: enabled, path tracing
shadow calculation: enabled

